I saw this as we planned your pre-wedding festivities. This is a support subreddit and conversations that detract from that are not allowed. You fostered kids for a lot of years, hard to place kids, the kids that needed a loving home desperately. This writing thing is like a needy, jealous wife who demands that everybody who wants to get close to me should play second. At first you laughed till you saw how upset I was. I grew frustrated with the countless self-submissions I did on online casting sites that led nowhere.
I am now Eighteen Years old, soon I will be leaving for college. I loved you, I love you and I will always love you, Your big sis. But if God wills, there will be one day when he comes and sweeps you off of your feet and you will be so thankful that you saved your heart for him. The more you stand with who you truly are, the more love and respect people will have for you. I know I have someone in my life looking to me for guidance and a glimpse of what the future and adulthood look like, so I put a lot of pressure on myself to be the best role model. How was I going to get better at acting if there were no opportunities to actually act? I hope your sister finds this one day and reads it and I hope the two of you reconnect sooner rather than later. Again, the only family that visited me.
You are a force to be reckoned with, an unstoppable whirlwind of imagination that creates a better world for those around you. And I hope you are proud of me. I will always be your older sister. He would prefer it if I had something stable, something that assured my future. And even when I stole your clothes without your permission you still managed to love me just the same. I was much less terrified because you were there. The love and compassion you hold within your heart is brilliant and is something I have always admired.
And yet, when I think these thoughts, I need to remind myself that I am human — and so are you. I hope you dont do my mistakes that you saw me make. For the first time we were in different states, living different lives. You were there when I felt like my first heartbreak was going to get the best of me. Did you know they fall for the heart and the mind? I think somewhere a long the lines of calling you names, and trying to get you in trouble, I must have gotten too busy to call you it. You always made yourself available. She was a rainy day weathered friend in reverse.
You were the one that always dreamed of being married and having a large family. I wish for you to find your voice and share it with everyone you encounter. No one else in the family ever came to see me in the hospital, but you were there every day. I have never forgotten that. I loved you from that moment.
That took a lot of compromise and adjusting on both our parts, sharing a room, but we did it. There is a special corner in my heart, which will always hold gratitude for you. You gave me my first taste of motherhood, my first realisation of adulthood, and the biggest love I could ever hold in my heart for another person. You teach me how to take care of people. But it will be here, on the internet, floating around. We went to the park, I read books to you. I may have done this for a while, but even if I did, I never did it with as much class and grace as you.
Now you are a wife and one day you will be an amazing mother. I know I would get the same silent treatment from my son, though, as you feel you have received from your sister. Now you have recently graduated with your bachelor's and I hardly even know anything about you. I owe my happy childhood, to a sister so adorable. I was auditioning for the nerdy best friend who would be upset over a B-minus, the hacker or technologically savvy team player, or a hypersexualized accented foreigner. Please if you have any questions or concerns. I have thought long and hard about what advice I can pass on to you, but I realise now that if I were to provide you with every piece of wisdom I have attained, I would leave you with no blank canvas to create your own story.
But, what God has to offer you is something that will satisfy you forever. My stomach is jumpy, something I suffer from a lot as a bachelor. She would like a relationship, but I will always have a wall up to protect myself. Now, at this stage of your life you should be living it easy, your adopted kids are all grown and off on their own now. I think it is very… well sweet to say the least. Thanks for always being by my side, sis.
Little sister, you have changed my life. Being the big sister is an important job. Even when I was wrong and you were right, you gave me a hug with all my might. Thank you for your support and your love and your humor. I scroll your instagram and Facebook from time to time. I wish for you to discover your passion and pursue it, because the day your dream becomes an accomplishment you will truly be successful.